Friday, August 14, 2009

11 Miles Hanging Over My Head

I may be acting overly dramatic, but my runs seem to just HANG over my head all day leading up to them. What's up with that? It literally ruins my mood. Once I get out there it isn't that bad, but the anticipation sucks. Does anyone know how to get over this?

All I want to do tonight is finish my wedding invites and play scrabble and drink wine. Is that such a crime?

I can't postpone this run until tomorrow because that would put me at 11 miles on Saturday and 17 on Sunday. No bueno. I have to do this tonight, hands down.

I have been majorly manic about wedding stuff lately and it is killing me. I feel like I am buzzing high level all the time and it is only going to crash. I'm definitely acting glass half empty and sick of it.
Sunday night I drive to Seattle for work until Thursday. I'm planning to do my 17 miler on Sunday morning but haven't picked out a route yet. Suggestions? Not too far, since I have to drive up to Seattle later that day. While I'm there it will be nonstop work crap. They're even forcing us to share rooms (embarrassing) so I literally have no downtime. I even have to sleep with one eye open. My one goal is to do 12 miles on Wednesday, the only night we do not have dinner plans. I can already tell my team is annoyed that I have to do this since they're trying to plan something during that time. This is when people who just don't get it really bother me. Guess what people - you better start getting it. At least empathize for one tiny moment will you? Maybe it will do you some good so you eventually, one day, can hope to run more than a mile without stopping for a break.
I'm such a whore, but seriously...I hate work get-togethers like this. And I'm also dreading my 11 miles that I have to do today. But while I'm at it those old bitches that I overheard saying my irises looked like shit can suck it too. Guess what old bitches? I can see you, and I can hear you so get the fuck off of my lawn.
Happy Friday!


X-Country2 said...

Good luck with juggling it all. I remember planning my wedding and trying to get it all done. Go get 'em!

NY Wolve said...

Your runs are for you and can be a place of refuge, not a foreboding presence. Good luck pushing through. I know all about running around work plans and travels, so good luck. Eat well and breathe deeply.

Jen Rife said...

Dude, I totally feel you on dreading the long runs. Been there, done that! I'm a big believer that sometimes it's OK to skip the less important workouts and focus on the important ones. Hang in there! You'll get it all done!

jen said...

How'd it go? I think all those people should most certainly shut the hell up.

I know exactly what you mean about dreading certain workouts. It's never as bad as you think but just the obligation is stressful. Sometimes it helps to plan on just getting out for a few miles, and see if the 11 happens, but don't think "I have 11 to run" you know? It almost always happens once you're out there.

I can't believe you have to share a room. :( That's gross.

Have a good trip! I'll miss you. Let's hang out when you get back!

the gazelle said...

I hope you had a good 11 & a great 17. those people who are bitching about you taking ONE FREAKING NIGHT to run are stupid bitches.

I hope Seattle isn't sucky! We'll have to get together when you get back.

Drs. Cynthia and David said...

Thought I'd stop lurking all the time and opine for a change...

It sounds to me like you are pushing yourself too hard and feeling too much pressure to perform. It takes a while to ramp up your training again after some time off, especially when you have other significant stresses and distractions in your life. The long runs are more fun and relaxing if you run them at a comfortable pace. You could try easing into them and picking it up when you feel good. You need balance between self imposed goals and the practical realities of a stressful life.

Good luck!


Marathon Maritza said...

I have found that a good way to calm down the buzz is to just focus on one thing at a time. Sometimes looking at the bigger picture is just too overwhelming.

Hang in there, chica!!! I cannot WAIT to see you next month!!!