Wednesday, December 17, 2008
Keggers With Kids All Next Year
Maybe I should have added another item to my Goals List this week - to not completely fall apart from work stress. Last night I had a personal breakdown and not feeling too much better today. Thank god I am keeping up with running because I can imagine I'd feel far worse without it.
I've woken up in the middle of the night almost every night for about a week. I end up thinking about work and completely blowing everything out of proportion and I can't stop. Sometimes I get back to sleep but I always lose a couple of hours. I need a lot of sleep too, so this totally sucks.
I am in a new position and running a project that is totally new too. There are processes, politics, people that I cannot even begin to describe. Plus, much of the content is way beyond my level of understanding. The funny part is that all of that is part of the deal - everyone in my position pretty much deals with it and I'm not sure how. It is times like these that make me want to be in a position where someone is just telling me what to do all the time. And then I go home at 5 and stop thinking about it.
I think I am just going to have to tough out this one and see how I feel when it is done (May 2009). If I'm totally dissatisfied I am going to look for different work or secretly stop taking birth control and sneakily get preggos. Probably the former.
I also found out today that a good family friend has cancer. WTF? I'm sad and scared for her and hopeful it can be taken care of. I've never had to deal with this so not quite sure how to react. I just know that it sucks.
It is snowing out and I feel like I'm in the center of a snowglobe right now. My cross town friend suggested that we ditch work this afternoon, get pedicures and go to yoga. Doesn't that sound awesome? I think I need this to recharge so I agreed. I am also going to knock out my easy 3 miler by running over there. Nothing like multi-tasking, eh?